IVF has begun...

So we started IVF last week.  We had postponed it by a month so that I could have time to prepare well, eat healthy, take exercise but most importantly get solidly grounded in Gods word so that we would go into the process knowing what God was speaking and being attentive to him.  Things never quite work out as you hope but in this case it is entirely down to me being so undisciplined and simply wasting the time.  Up until last weekend I was feeling pretty stressed, I was continuing in my usual routine, praying, reading the bible, talking about God but I was finding it so hard to connect with Him.  Fortunately for me God is gracious and he pursues me!  Thank you Lord!  Since then God has been speaking lots, maybe I'll blog about it if I get chance, the theme is always the same - He is my treasure - He is my great reward!  I am so thankful that he lets me glimpse Him - and I want him to be my pursuit and my focus over these next few weeks and beyond.  There will be times when this process is really hard and I know I literally wont be able to go on in my strength but I know my God is with me.