Faith fleshed out

I feel like I should explain where that last post came from. 

This has been the key thing that God has been teaching me over the past couple of weeks.  The initially energy of the new year is well and truly gone and I'll end up back where I was in December (lacking discipline, feeling lost, lonely and miserable and lacking any tangible hope - because I took my eyes off Jesus, meaning I wasn't looking at him, my head was down, I was simply looking at myself and my circumstance, I wasn't even looking to the needs of others...) If it wasn't for the grace of God.  In his grace he is sustaining me.  He is teaching me that what really counts is faith.  And how can I demonstrate faith if I am trusting in my own strength?  First I need to realise my weakness, not just a passing, need a bit of help for a while weakness but utter and complete weakness.  I nead to learn how to lean my whole weight upon Him.  So I feel weak.  I'm finding it tough.  Feeling confused.  Struggling to find joy and motivation.  I've been looking at the life of Abel, the son of Adam and Eve, what did he do? Not much.  But he goes down in the Hebrews 11 faith hall of fame.  He trusted God, he offered a more sacrifice.  Am I willing to trust God? Completely? I want to.  Faith isn't some wishy washy thing to make me feel better, faith isn't about me.  It pleases God!  So if the goal is faith in Jesus I need to view all of life through that lens, measure success and failure in terms of that.  It changes everything.  And if that is true our infertility gives us an opportunity to demonstrate faith that we wouldn't have otherwise had.